Was he guilty of all the things my cynicism and insecurities accused him of? Was I guilty of barring myself enough to possibly prevent a deepening of his affection for me? Am I guilty of making excuses for him and blaming myself for his frequent indifference and selfishness? How am I to know how we are each to blame for where we now stand? For surely we are both accountable, but in what ways? And if we were to pinpoint each of our many faulty behaviors, would we be able to salvage the connection of two strangers who became close friends in one night?